noun, plural -tus·es, -tus.
1. a break or interruption in the continuity of a work, series, action, etc.
2. a missing part; gap or lacuna: Scholars attempted to account for the hiatus in the medieval manuscript.
3. any gap or opening.
4. Grammar, Prosody . the coming together, with or without break or slight pause, and without contraction, of two vowels in successive words or syllables, as in see easily.
5. Anatomy . a natural fissure, cleft, or foramen in a bone or other structure.
It has been a very long time.
I have definitely been having a break or interruption.
I was making something fairly special, a little bambino. But it didn't work out this time and we lost him at week 25 of the pregnancy. It wasn't a great pregnancy to be fair and I was ill most of the time (oh, the benefit of hindsight), I didn't go out much, I didn't laugh much and I certainly wasn't up for making much, badly or otherwise.
Noah was still born on 14th July, poor little chap. He was tiny and he looked perfect, which is a certain kind of irony because he wasn't. He had severe swelling in the ventricles in his tiny brain - those scans are bloody amazing - and it was heartbreaking.
But, as Friedrich Nietzsche said, what does not kill you makes you stronger and I hope that I will find that to be true. And this is helping, oddly - http://www.justgiving.com/Noah-Spanier
So I am back, I am hoping that my hiatus is over and I plan to bore cyberspace with my waffling until someone posts to tell me to stop.
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